62) I’m in love with my older sister’s best friend. He’s three years older than me, but we’re pretty good friends, and he’s always saying how cool I am and how much he loves me, but I know I could never be with him. He’s the first guy to ever give me the light of day, and since I struggle with my self-esteem, I’m afraid that if I go after him and lose him, I’ll do something I’ll regret.
I’m not sure I can handle another relationship because I don’t trust myself. When I say I don’t trust myself, I mean I’m not sure I have enough self control to deal with heartbreak in a healthy way.
